Ayaka FUKUI giving a speech on “The Reason We Are Here”

P5 Session #04のトピックは、”The Reason We Are Here”(私たちがここにいる理由)です。

Ayaka FUKUI さん(薬学部3回生)によるスピーチです。子供のころ彼女の身長は155cm、体重はわずか28kgでした。拒食症だった彼女と現在の彼女を繋ぐ”点”とは?

Transcript

Do you have any idea what this number means? Do you have any idea what these numbers mean?
 First one is the number of meetings which is important in my life. And the second one is my body weight and height when I was a sixth-grade elementary school student and second-year junior high school student.

I was anorexic. It is a mental disease, which made me afraid to eat. I got so thin and I was in the hospital for nearly 2 years at each grade.

Now I've made a full recovery from the illness.
 I like to eat some sweets and to go to lunch with my friends. However, it has affected my health. In fact, I’m weight-loss-related amenorrhea and I take some medicines for it.

When I was an elementary student, before suffering from anorexia, I was a sensitive girl.

For one, I pretended I couldn’t solve an easy math problem. Why? Because I was afraid my friends who hate to lose found me smarter than them. I protected my real thought. Yes, I pretended to be a “pretty good student” to all.

Also when I was an elementary student I was little fat. I had complex about my little fatty body shape and I was bullied. So, I tried to lose my weight however in finally I couldn’t control myself and I become anorexia. Then I had to be hospitalized.

When I was in the hospital I couldn’t control myself and I lost my sense of self. But I met one small boy and he changed my story. He was few years old. However, he never forgot his smile and he cheered us up. His mother had treated me with gentle patience and she accepted me including the fact that I had been anorexic. Also my family everyday, every time help me.

So I could recovery and I’m here now. Now I was not so sensitive and so strict with myself. Meeting with him and the anorexic is one of the most important one in my life.

After I got off the hospital, I enjoyed everyday but I had something on my chest. I thought that I wasted my time becoming the disease even after I got out from the hospital.

But the situation was changed by the sentence by Steven Jobs.

You can‘t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future

When I was a high school student I came across the sentence and I considered about my life “the reason I’m here”.

I think the reason I’m here is in my history. I realized if I accept all of my history, I could find my future.

The disease is my turning point and it is one of my important dots which connects past to now, also now to brilliant future. I become the disease so I could meet them, could be honest. Also not only disease but also all of the past things connect now.

However, I know it is difficult to come to terms with my past.

But no dot means any line, no line means any figure. Lots of dots means the lines for future and you can find the figures and your future.

In my life I had three important dots. So I want to be chance for someone to find his or her future. Please connect your dots, connect your line and look for your future.

Thank you for listing.